My anxiety attacks have welcomed themselves back into my life, coming in at full force lately. It was only last week when I was at my doctor telling her I was ready to completely come off of my anxiety medication because my anxiety attacks were obsolete or at the very least manageable. A mere 7 days later and I feel like the world is crashing down on top of me.
And that is the power of having anxiety attacks.
Anxiety is a normal feeling, but it’s the way you deal with it that turns it into massive anxiety attacks.
This past year was amazing with regards to curing my anxiety and accomplishing things I never thought I was able to do as an anxiety sufferer. I got on a plane for the first time, by myself and traveled for 10 days. I spent weekends in Toronto with people I barely knew, dining in restaurants and attending major events that would have plagued me with anxiety attacks previously.
These two things were major moments within 2016. I didn’t have my car, nor did I have a way to escape if I felt the need to do so. I was there, in the moment, dealing with my anxiety and loving every moment of life.
But then one morning, I woke up just like any other day and boom! The feeling of panic rushed over me. In an instant, everything I accomplished in the past 12 months was completely erased from my mind, including the confidence that came with it.
Suddenly, the smallest things started sending me into a fit of panic. Forget about dining at the top of the CN Tower sans anxiety. I am now having anxiety attacks at my own dinner table. Forget about attending major events without a touch of panic. I am now experiencing anxiety attacks simply walking into my family’s house.
But it’s really silly to let one dose of anxiety completely ruin you, and while it feels like you have no control, you do.
I keep telling myself that I’ve accomplished much more and have gotten through much worse. A couple days of anxiety doesn’t have to push my progress backward.
Believing that is an entirely different story, but the mind is a powerful thing, as all anxiety sufferers know. This is nothing I can’t embed into my mindset.
Anxiety is a normal feeling, but it’s the way we deal with it that turns it into a massive panic.
Just because you experienced panic attacks over the past week doesn’t mean that it’s inevitable for the weeks to follow.
Anxiety can be a one hit wonder. A random panic attack doesn’t have to throw your life into a tailspin. You just have to gather your thoughts, focus on the positive and remember, you’ve accomplished more.
But as you and I both know, it’s much easier said than done….